YOU'VE BEEN DISCONNECTED....

Written on 11.12.10...

the word perfect is just absolute bullshit..perfect boyfriends..perfect friends..perfect job..perfect house..perfect everything.. i think there is something wrong wit the word perfect... people coloured and smeared this shit everywhere called perfect... Life ain't perfect..there's is no such a thing as perfect lover or perfect friends...all our lives we wait for the bullshit perfect.. that perfect connection "oh he or she likes the same music we will be perfect"... yes sure u will be and for the rest of your life u will listen to perfect melodies u make... everything wears off and looses its shiny perfect colour and becomes rusty and old... the perfect love, the perfect job and the oh so beautiful perfect friends becomes comfortable, a routine and repetitive and boring... perfect is just made up lie so for the rest of our lives we can search for that perfection... an empty lie with fake colours and faces... i given up searching for perfect awhile ago... this is not fairy tale.. no ones gonna live happily ever after no one is gonna get rescued by their prince charming and live in a castle in beautiful country with beautiful things... soo i am gonna live my life with my not so perfect boyfriend... not so perfect job... and not so perfect life with my oh so not perfect unexpected decisions... i will burn and learn in my own not so perfect life with the shiny perfect people with their perfect colours and perfect masks....

THE SMITHS and COFFEE ♥

woke up @ 4am today.. had a strange dream and couldnt go back to sleep for awhile... i dont like dreams that feel so real... Anywayz here is wat I got up to today..

Listened to Smiths & Morrissey and drank coffee... The songs Heaven knows I'm miserable now & Girlfriend in coma been stuck in my head for days.. I had to listen....

More unpacking and re-packing... Found pics of me when I was little girl.....

 

This pic is so old.... when I show it to friends they say it looks creepy haha

Me and My mama... Look @ my cute outfit & my gigantic eyes hehe

 Me and my childhood friend Ayla... I look uncomfortable the way I am holding my hand & look @ my knees & my chubby cheeks... i love the way my shoe laces are so long in a bow hmmm

Rough sketch of the tattoo I will be getting... Poppies & a poem by Charles Bukowski in memory of a friend I have lost...... 

My Outfit for the day... My fave "Something" shirt dress...

Sat on the couch and watched Mad Man while eating my yummy dinner... Chicken Nibbles and salad with bacon & to wash it off CCs & coke... I gotta have atleast glass of wine a day.. But I think my poison is whiskey mmmmm 

 Something to do with the dream I had......

Thats all for today... Time to crash on the couch & watch mad man & perhaps have glass of whiskey to make it easier to go to sleep hmmmm....

Adios Amigos xx♥